no-one can find a rewind button girl

face_foward @ 2007-02-27T10:46:00

2007-02-27T15:55:30Z

oh wow. i certainly have forgotten about this thing. i remember when i use to be obsessed with it. i guess ive moved on to myspace, but even that has gotten old. so im working full time now as a pharmacy tech. im going to get certified here in about a month. Once i pass that test ill be making like 9.70 an hour. yeah thatll be nice. i like it i guess, very stressful but working an 8 and a half hour day goes by quickly. i dont hang out with people i use to. i dont know them anymore and it makes me sad. i love all of my new friends but i dont want the old to think ive forgotten because i definently have not.Me and steven are doing tremendous. i had my doubts at first, big time. but those are gone and i couldnt be happier. i cant wait for school to end. but i dont have to go back till thursday since its fcat week or whatever.oh great my monthly is due tomorrow. how exciting. nasty nasty nasty. alright well i have to work tonight 1:00-9:30. yay? sure why not. then im spending the night with steven. im going to get in the shower now. until next time?

face_foward @ 2006-11-09T13:00:00

2006-11-09T17:00:01Z

school is retarded, thats why i never go. i need to go, before i get kicked out. whatever. let them try. if my mom finds out how many days ive missed im screwed. ahh. anyways i work tonight 530-1000. splendid. i want to hang out with people.(alisha and alison mainly.) skdfnsjkf time to go.

face_foward @ 2006-10-27T14:33:00

2006-10-27T18:35:56Z

so today was an amazing day at school if i do say so. we did absolutley nothing b/c of homecoming candidates and stuff. so congrats to everyone who placed in the top 10!! hm so im definently not going to homecoming. its a waste of money and time but i guess if you get a thrill out of that kind of stuff then go for it. haha. i work tonight 4-10 then im hanging out with steven all freakin night :)! im super excited b/c we had alot of fun last night so tonight will be even better. okay just thought id update this thing.

i wake up to love

2006-10-24T01:32:29Z

the weather is beautiful tonight. i wish it was always like that. as i ran the lake everything felt so pure, i realized how much in life i take for granted. i dont want to do that anymore. im ready to break free.

something to be started again?

2006-10-21T01:19:29Z

so tonight was pretty awesome. me n my dad went to an old car show out around lake mirror! and it was beautiful out there, then we went and visited the grandparents for a bit and i loved it cuz i havent seen them in what feels like ages. we ate and then ate some more which is always good times. came back to the house and i got to talk to "him"! :) and we are hanging out on sunday and maybe something will happen...i cannot wait. but tomorrow a bunch of us are going to Old Town and hanging out. that is going to be hella fun times. so yes. but before then im going to run lake hollingsworth in the morning and then i have to work 10:30-2:30. wooooo hooooo. life is good.

face_foward @ 2006-10-17T22:59:00

2006-10-18T03:00:45Z

im sorry for the way things are. they will get better, you'll see. but until then just know im thinking of you and ill always care. even when you dont anymore.

you'll find happiness.

live and love

2006-10-12T17:15:41Z

so this past week has been pretty good. i work a lot but itll pay off when i get my pay check :). school is going good. for the first time i passed an anatomy test today. yeah, thats the best ever. my mom is finally happy again. it is great it see her smile. i think its the new guy in her life. he is awesome. they are together every weekend and it makes me so happy for her, then again it makes me wish that i was in her position. i really really really hope me and jeremy can do something together on saturday. seeing him only at school isnt enough, and i just wish i could change his parents mind. i wish they would realize he is 17 and can make his own decisions whether good or bad. A relationship just cant run on seeing each other for 2 hours at school, it just wont go anywhere if that is going to be the case. im not ending this. he means way too much to me to do that but something has got to change, and soon. i swear it has to or im going to go crazy. but maybe thats what they are trying to do. drive me away from him or something? i dont know why when they havent even given me a chance. i know they will never see this but please just give me a chance dont push me away from him.

imaloser

2006-10-01T04:57:49Z

wow its been forever since ive writen in this beast. life has been amazing. school is good, friends are good, and boyfriend is great! yeah im still working at target and thats cool. i got my wisdom teeth out on friday and that was fun...ha. its not as bad as i thought though. i just cant wait to eat real food again. i never thought i would ever get sick of ice cream and mashed potatoes but i can honestly say i dont want them for a long time. so yeah this weekend me, robert, jeremy, and alex are going to halloween horror nights so im freakin excited about that and me and jeremy have a date alllll day friday and im even more stoked about that. so anyways im done its been fun but myspace is cooler now.

i gotta stay fly

2006-08-30T15:42:42Z

so the rest of the week is going to be super busy. i work today 1:30-5:30, tomorrow 2:30-10:00, and friday 1:45-10:00. i am off on saturday and at 9:30 i have a hair appt. after that i have a wedding to go to and then at night hanging with some crazy cool kids :)! sunday i work 11:30-7:00 and then im off to a party that Dunn is throwing and then spending the night at walkers becuase i will be all kinds of intoxicated. so im pretty excited. this hurricane is pretty cool only because we dont have to go to school. well i need to get in the shower and then off to work.

oh and i think i like someone who i barely even know. hopefully saturday night will change that ;).

its too late to make it right.

2006-08-28T19:06:36Z

i love nicklebacks song "far away" and hinders song "lips of an angel" they make me have mixed emotions though. good and bad. eh. i want to be able to say im happy but its really hard when i see jake everyday at school. it would be a lot easier if he didnt already have a new little girlfriend. man this is a lot harder to get over than i thought. keeping busy helps out. especially 4-wheelin with mike and matt and other cool kids. me n robert are going to run the lake tonight so that will be fun. tiffany is always with her new boyfriend. its whatever. i understand to the fullest though. and i miss alisha. im going to go now. yay.

its whatever

2006-08-25T23:22:13Z

so i broke up with jake yesterday. i came to realize that he really wasnt this awesome kid i thought. he is a liar and i got him right in them. so i go to dairy queen and to my surprise my friend kayla works there and she was asking me how i was and i was like well do you know jake willis and she was like yeah! im about to date him... i was like ohh realllly...i just broke up with him yesterday. she was like what! you were his girlfriend, i was like uhh yeah so he lied to her and told her that him and his "girlfriend" had broke up about 1 week n a half ago and "they" broke up b/c she didnt seem to want to spend any time with him and put him second. i was like WTF?!?!? yeah so i told her it was all a lie and that if she still wants to date him just be careful. so yeah i want to badly to just yell at him but in the end it will only make me more upset and then me and jake will be enemies and i dont want that. but anyways i still have my best friends and body guards (robert! and daniel!) and a few ::cough:: guys already are wanting to get with me? hahaha i feel so gangster saying that. anyways im over being sad. im ready to have fun whether in a relationship or not.

i love your mom.

yes, i dream of you too.

2006-08-23T22:46:33Z

so this day off has been pretty good. got up and me and my madre went for a walk then ate breakfast. after that we got ready went out shopping then ate lunch at crispers. we did some more shopping at the grocery store and then went back home. i then get a phone call from my dad and he wanted to go to dinner so we went to mimi's cafe and now im totally full. later on we are going to my aunts for cake and ice cream for my uncles birthday. i dont know whats going on between me and jake right now b/c he hasnt returned my call for about a day now. he told me it might be getting shut up cuz him and his grandpa got into a huge fight and he told jake he was turning off his cell. i had tiff call him just to see if he would answer his phone for someone else but he didnt so that makes me a bit more relieved. our 1 month is only a few days away and im hoping we wont break up...anyways im done complaining now. and i dont work until saturday. woo hoo.

ill never make a promise i dont intend to keep

2006-08-09T17:35:13Z

i really dont even know why i update this thing anymore. i guess its something to do when i am bored. i have OJT now for my 4th period so i get to leave school at 12:22. in about a week i should start going to work after school like 3 days a week. but for now its nice coming home and doing whatever until work. i go in today 6-10 and tomorrow 6-10. i enjoy school sometimes, i actually dont mind being there. i am tired but if i take a nap i wont sleep tonight.(i learned that from last night)jake came over monday night and that was fun;) but i miss him because i only see him for about 5 minutes a day at school since he leaves at 10:20,anyways im going to go to the ymca shortly and work out and then just hang out at my dads until time for work.

face_foward @ 2006-08-04T12:48:00

2006-08-04T16:58:24Z

so these past 3 days have been amazing and all since i didnt have to work, but today its back to business. so i work 2:15-10:00 but im off tomorrow so thats cool. :D. me and jake hung out yesterday from like 5:30 till 2 in the freakin morning. it was lots of fun and we saw taledega nights, it was really funny. good times. anyways orientation was yesterday that was cool i saw alot of people who i had missed. i guess im kinda excited about school, i have alot of hard classes first semester but second semester only algebra 2 and the rest are like P.E. classes which when the time comes im going to see if i can get out of them for sure and just have algebra 2. alright i need to get ready for work.

do your chains hang low? haha

2006-07-31T15:07:08Z

so today will be my 7th day in a row working. and its an 8 hour and 15 minute day. i think i will die. anyways yeah so i work today 12:15-8:30. but to my advantage i am off tuesday wednesday and thursday! i broke up with jason but now i am dating jake once again. we are starting over and i think this could be a good thing:). im not too excited about school starting in a week, but whatever. me and my mom are going to go clothes shopping tomorrow so yay. my car keeps getting written all over with window marker! darn you fools.just kidding i love yall. but i will wash the beast tomorrow.for shore. okay i have rambled on way too much.goodbye.

oh shoot !

2006-07-21T16:06:00Z

so today i got paid. $237.28. thats really good actually but the thing is i owe my mom 120 like always which is no problem but i am getting my hair done and thats another 100. so yeah hahaha. thank god for my generous mother and her going to give me 50 dollars for gas for the next 2 weeks. maybe i can make that work. enough about that though. i went to jasons last night and that was hella fun ;) i swear i didnt stop laughing all freakin night. alright well i am suppose to work 6-10 but they asked me to come in at 4 so i am definently going to do that! oh and my mom is going to the beach sunday night and she doesnt trust me to stay at my house alone so if anyone wants amanda to stay with them that night that would be amazing. holla. ha.

oh my goodness

2006-07-14T11:42:45Z

so i have been working alot this week and i have enjoyed it actually. today i work 9:30-1:30 and tomorrow 3:30-10:00. im pretty excited about sunday night though because i have a date with a really sweet 19 year old guy named jason. and due to my mom and her have being wonderful friends with his mother they set us up and he just so happened to be at the restaurant we had planned to go to that night and then we took it from there and now we have a date. and i think im ready for a relationship now. so maybe this could work. :) ill keep my fingers crossed.

so after i get off work today i am meeting up with my brother and mom and we are seeing a movie then going to eat and then after im going to see my buddy jonathan at his work then after that i dunno so if anyone wants to hang out at around 7 give me a call.love forever.

i just wanna break you down so badly

2006-07-04T04:00:37Z

so this past week has been super special. i have been able to hang out and get to know the people who use to be the closest thing to me all over again. they are all amazing and i regret ever losing touch. they make me smile and forget all the things that recently have been...not to great. i hope to never lose touch ever again. i love these kids. and one inparticular has grown on me in a way i didnt think could ever happen again :). who knows where it will go but all i know is i am happy.

you and i both

2006-06-20T20:46:19Z

so i definently love love love my new job at Target. the people are awesome and it gets easier and easier everyday. im so excited becuase alison will soon be working there too! anyways summers been good. hanging out with like everybody on my contact list in my cell phone, which is always fun to hang out with the people who i had kinda lost touch with. anyways off to hang out with jake! goodbye.

your mom made me happy last night.

2006-06-15T01:52:33Z

so i know i have always been talking about quitting walgreens but the time has finally come:). i totally quit and i now officially work at target. i wish it was at the one alisha works but none the less its awesome. i work tomorrow 9-2 then hanging out with hopefully alisha and alison. oh yeah! and i had 2 boyfriends at one time. it was the craziest ever. dont ask me how it happened. but now i have none so whatever.ha. anyways im tired and im getting up early so yeah. goodnight.

face_foward @ 2006-05-30T12:00:00

2006-05-30T16:07:06Z

ok so im not exactly single anymore. we are trying and working things out. im really really happy that he is always here for me no matter what crap i have put him through. and the comforting thing is...i know he will always be here for me. i know it wasnt my fault that another guy kissed me when i was unaware but it was my choice to go to that party and so therefore i do feel i am part to blame. he tells me everythings okay but the truth is im scared and i dont want to lose him. i feel very fortunate and blessed to have him by my side and im not messing up this time. i swear i wont. i know ive got to change my lifestyle and its already begun to change and it feels so good. this kid has my heart. no doubt <3

oh and tiffany turns 18 tomorrow. happy birthday boo. your growing up.

face_foward @ 2006-05-24T13:40:00

2006-05-24T17:43:32Z

oops i did it again...haha

im single.

face_foward @ 2006-05-10T12:34:00

2006-05-10T16:42:04Z

so i told walgreens i wont be with them after this summer. i joined the swim team at mulberry and so they wouldnt be able to work with my hours. so now its off to look for a new job but continue to work at walgreens until i find something else. i am dating daniel and i am really happy and i want this to work. um tonight carrie is doing my hair and im super excited about what we are going to do. nothing crazy this time but its going to be fun. anyways i didnt go to school today and i dont have to go tomorrow cuz i have an AP exam at the polk museum of art at 8 in the morning then me daniel and robert are going to run the lake so we can get in shape for swim next year and then to smoothie king:D. ok im done.

face_foward @ 2006-04-25T10:40:00

2006-04-25T14:48:22Z

so definently didnt go to school today...im so going to get kicked out. i just cannot wait until summer. i have to work tonight but im off wednesday thursday and sunday. those days will be spent with my lover, Josh simmons and i believe i will go to church tomorrow night. im glad josh quit smoking because i refuse to kiss him when he smokes.naaaasty. okay so cant wait to see if i have to take comprehension exams in all my classes. i think so. k bye.

get a little mud on your tires!

2006-04-01T15:44:42Z

so this spring break has been pretty good. i worked monday-wednesday but i had thursday and friday and today off! me and my good buddy alison and her sister are going to the beach so this should be good times :) i was suppose to go yesterday too but amy got the flu or something in the middle of the night so that didnt happen. OH! i got my hair done it is like super red as a base and then alot of blonde at the top. let me tell you-pimp tight! i loooove it and alison is going to get hers done like it too but maybe with a brown base. anyways just thought id update yall people since i8 havent in so long. peace!